I don't intend to gain information, to probe.
You don't have to explain.
I don't have to know.
I just don't want it to affect people under my care.
You take care of that.
That's all.
And that's all I ask.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
illustrator
I don't intend to gain information, to probe.
You don't have to explain.
I don't have to know.
I just don't want it to affect people under my care.
You take care of that.
That's all.
And that's all I ask.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Finished the part for my group report an hour ago...
Actually, two hours ago. But because I won't be touching this report anymore, I had to check to safely make sure everything's fine.
Spent the past hour eating and snacking and stoning. Replenishing my brain juices and energy.
There should be 3 things i'm doing now- packing for YI camp, studying for SS, practicing my piano... but i'm just sitting here stoning...
I think i'll choose to pack first.
Actually, two hours ago. But because I won't be touching this report anymore, I had to check to safely make sure everything's fine.
Spent the past hour eating and snacking and stoning. Replenishing my brain juices and energy.
There should be 3 things i'm doing now- packing for YI camp, studying for SS, practicing my piano... but i'm just sitting here stoning...
I think i'll choose to pack first.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Sometimes we look upon our lives as if we were self sufficient
Our lives are perfect without God.
Just like this seed.
Being shiny, pretty and contentedly happy.
What it never realized was thatIt was never meant to be just a decorative item
It was meant for more.
It was meant for life, growth and breakthrough.
Even though it sheds its once hard and pretty coatIt never looks back
to the days it was comfortable within itself
I'm tired..
One after another, there were so many things due this week.. not to mention tests and presentations.
I could feel that there were things lacking in our cq project but I thought that if no one was able to see it, I don't want to be able to see it either. it was the only project I had so far that I could just attend the group meeting for and not feel responsible for holding everything together. Not that I mind leading group projects. Just that progressively, it can be tiring. it's not anyone's fault. it just means i need more energy.
2 more last things before the start of the holiday: Mr D's site analysis grp report and soil science common test. SS shouldn't be a problem. It's just Mr D's report. I'm already falling asleep and still am sticky from the hours of fort canning, walking and getting lost.
looking forward to cycling when samuel's back. I'll probably go night cycling with him and some friends. an opportunity of every once in a blue moon. besides that, look forward to camp, chalet, christmas celebration (both families) and meeting charlotte.
One after another, there were so many things due this week.. not to mention tests and presentations.
I could feel that there were things lacking in our cq project but I thought that if no one was able to see it, I don't want to be able to see it either. it was the only project I had so far that I could just attend the group meeting for and not feel responsible for holding everything together. Not that I mind leading group projects. Just that progressively, it can be tiring. it's not anyone's fault. it just means i need more energy.
2 more last things before the start of the holiday: Mr D's site analysis grp report and soil science common test. SS shouldn't be a problem. It's just Mr D's report. I'm already falling asleep and still am sticky from the hours of fort canning, walking and getting lost.
looking forward to cycling when samuel's back. I'll probably go night cycling with him and some friends. an opportunity of every once in a blue moon. besides that, look forward to camp, chalet, christmas celebration (both families) and meeting charlotte.
Friday, December 4, 2009
After reading about the Judgment, I realized how real it is that I'm not quite up to standard in terms of faithfulness. I tend to take God's word as a suggestion for enhancement of life, not as something that I will be judged by; that I should really be working my butt off to study so I don't miss anything. That I take sin more lightly than I should. My thoughts were- Oh. I'm seriously doomed.
after all the passive "oh I'll be doomed and I'll just walk away and forget this" kind of thinking, I read on to the part about hades and the lake of fire. Then it wasn't funny anymore.
A few thoughts occurred to me: Why is God so terribly stingy about entrance to heaven, it's super difficult! I won't ever make it for that kind of standards. I keep falling back time and again.
So there was a part on judgment on Christians who knew God and went to church and told people about him and everything but their lifestyles contradict what they said they believed or they looked completely holy on the outside but inside harbor bitterness and malice.
Then they went on to talk about the details of hell. How it's so unbearable and indescribably somewhere you don't want to be burning and burning and being eaten by worms but not dying for eternity. Reality caught up with me and I realized how real this situation is, that many will be faced with. and I honestly tell you, ironic as it seems, I was quite agonized and in desp'air.
Then I saw it from God's perspective.
Hell is where I'm supposed to go. It's supposed to be bleak and that's supposed to be our fate. And yes, true, i can never match up. but i forgot one thing. it's that Jesus died for us. and suddenly, that's not our fate anymore. it's almost too good to be true. like what, i don't have to go in that pit of fire? that's just awesome!
i experienced the relief and gratefulness that I never really understood. Got a new understanding of what God did for us because he loves us.
I know continuing to live a life of God's standard after that is so difficult. but when Jesus died he not only freed us from death in hell. he also freed us from sin. we are given power to live in freedom from it. and we can be called sons and daughters of God.
and as if saving us is not enough, God has prepared a place in heaven for us. and all God asks of us, is that we give him our lives. live our lives for him. it's difficult, troublesome, tiring at times. but i feel that if God has given me his son, I just want to give him everything I am.
and it's not all about blindly following a set of rules. living this life with God is loving him and walking beside him. it's a privilege. i can actually be in a relationship with God.
God's given us everything we need to live this life for him [2 peter 1:3-4] and we can approach him with confidence for grace in our time of need [hebrews 4:12].
i think everyone should read driven by eternity. it's knowing the real truth, not just believing in your own self made fluff about God. and we christians get so smug about being saved and take that for granted... we're called to work out our salvation with fear and trembling. and not everyone who says "Lord, Lord" will be able to enter the gates of heaven.
Now I can trade these ashes in for beauty
and wear forgiveness like a crown
coming to kiss the feet of mercy
i lay every burden down
at the foot of the cross
after all the passive "oh I'll be doomed and I'll just walk away and forget this" kind of thinking, I read on to the part about hades and the lake of fire. Then it wasn't funny anymore.
A few thoughts occurred to me: Why is God so terribly stingy about entrance to heaven, it's super difficult! I won't ever make it for that kind of standards. I keep falling back time and again.
So there was a part on judgment on Christians who knew God and went to church and told people about him and everything but their lifestyles contradict what they said they believed or they looked completely holy on the outside but inside harbor bitterness and malice.
Then they went on to talk about the details of hell. How it's so unbearable and indescribably somewhere you don't want to be burning and burning and being eaten by worms but not dying for eternity. Reality caught up with me and I realized how real this situation is, that many will be faced with. and I honestly tell you, ironic as it seems, I was quite agonized and in desp'air.
Then I saw it from God's perspective.
Hell is where I'm supposed to go. It's supposed to be bleak and that's supposed to be our fate. And yes, true, i can never match up. but i forgot one thing. it's that Jesus died for us. and suddenly, that's not our fate anymore. it's almost too good to be true. like what, i don't have to go in that pit of fire? that's just awesome!
i experienced the relief and gratefulness that I never really understood. Got a new understanding of what God did for us because he loves us.
I know continuing to live a life of God's standard after that is so difficult. but when Jesus died he not only freed us from death in hell. he also freed us from sin. we are given power to live in freedom from it. and we can be called sons and daughters of God.
and as if saving us is not enough, God has prepared a place in heaven for us. and all God asks of us, is that we give him our lives. live our lives for him. it's difficult, troublesome, tiring at times. but i feel that if God has given me his son, I just want to give him everything I am.
and it's not all about blindly following a set of rules. living this life with God is loving him and walking beside him. it's a privilege. i can actually be in a relationship with God.
God's given us everything we need to live this life for him [2 peter 1:3-4] and we can approach him with confidence for grace in our time of need [hebrews 4:12].
i think everyone should read driven by eternity. it's knowing the real truth, not just believing in your own self made fluff about God. and we christians get so smug about being saved and take that for granted... we're called to work out our salvation with fear and trembling. and not everyone who says "Lord, Lord" will be able to enter the gates of heaven.
Now I can trade these ashes in for beauty
and wear forgiveness like a crown
coming to kiss the feet of mercy
i lay every burden down
at the foot of the cross
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
figures
idea snagged from charlotte. snore away. here we go...
the zero energy building at BCA (Building and construction authorities) cost about $10million. It cost 10% more than normal buildings and the cost would take abt 12 years to be recovered. However, the ZEB (zero energy building) is up to 60% more energy efficient than office buildings that are similar. About 48 000$ is saved from energy saving technology and 36000$ is saved from solar panels. The ZEB at BCA is one of a kind as ZEBs are usually built from scratch but the one at BCA has materials retrofitted onto a building that existed since 1994. They're the first in asia to have such big solar panels too.
Aside from solar panels on the rooftops and vertical greening to reduce temperature, BCA's ZEB also has some twin fan ventilation system thing, where you're able to get personalized air ventilation. (this reduces air conditioning bills) Only places occupied by people have ventilation of fresh air whereas for the rest of the places, recycled air is used as it uses less energy to cool. Based on the hot air rises and cool air sinks concept, the air con is on the floor... (that's what i remember hearing.)
They also have a solar chimney that brings the hot air up and outwards so that cooler air from the ducts come in, improving ventilation by 11%.
oh yeah. and the energy they generate is more than what they use such that the net energy is zero. if they have sunless days and all, they tap into the normal electrical energy that we usually use.
green buildings/sustainable buildings are usually
- Efficient with resources such as water, energy, materials.
- protecting of occupant health
- reduces pollution, waste and environmental degradation
BCA stands for building construction authorities and their goal is to create the best built environment for singapore [,our distinctive global city.. meh.] and they focus on these aspects: safety, high quality, sustainability, friendly built environment.
Alright that's it for environmental revision for now.. might edit later.
the zero energy building at BCA (Building and construction authorities) cost about $10million. It cost 10% more than normal buildings and the cost would take abt 12 years to be recovered. However, the ZEB (zero energy building) is up to 60% more energy efficient than office buildings that are similar. About 48 000$ is saved from energy saving technology and 36000$ is saved from solar panels. The ZEB at BCA is one of a kind as ZEBs are usually built from scratch but the one at BCA has materials retrofitted onto a building that existed since 1994. They're the first in asia to have such big solar panels too.
Aside from solar panels on the rooftops and vertical greening to reduce temperature, BCA's ZEB also has some twin fan ventilation system thing, where you're able to get personalized air ventilation. (this reduces air conditioning bills) Only places occupied by people have ventilation of fresh air whereas for the rest of the places, recycled air is used as it uses less energy to cool. Based on the hot air rises and cool air sinks concept, the air con is on the floor... (that's what i remember hearing.)
They also have a solar chimney that brings the hot air up and outwards so that cooler air from the ducts come in, improving ventilation by 11%.
oh yeah. and the energy they generate is more than what they use such that the net energy is zero. if they have sunless days and all, they tap into the normal electrical energy that we usually use.
green buildings/sustainable buildings are usually
- Efficient with resources such as water, energy, materials.
- protecting of occupant health
- reduces pollution, waste and environmental degradation
BCA stands for building construction authorities and their goal is to create the best built environment for singapore [,our distinctive global city.. meh.] and they focus on these aspects: safety, high quality, sustainability, friendly built environment.
Alright that's it for environmental revision for now.. might edit later.
kinda irritating how he tries to fix up our phone calls or ask me if I've called.
just because I don't call my brother every other day or every week, it shouldn't be a cause for surprise, neither does it show that our relationship with each other is not good. he's just not a phone person. but I'm pretty sure a lengthy, chat-filled phone call is not quite our way of connection. He's a guy for goodness' sake. why would he want to pick up the phone and tell his sister every single fine bit of detail of his life which she doesn't understand- planes and all. only thing i know how to do is crash them on the plane stimulator.
just because I don't call my brother every other day or every week, it shouldn't be a cause for surprise, neither does it show that our relationship with each other is not good. he's just not a phone person. but I'm pretty sure a lengthy, chat-filled phone call is not quite our way of connection. He's a guy for goodness' sake. why would he want to pick up the phone and tell his sister every single fine bit of detail of his life which she doesn't understand- planes and all. only thing i know how to do is crash them on the plane stimulator.
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